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Monday, July 26, 2010
A GOOD reflection about today.
Let me introduce you to the elephant in the room,it has been a week since I tried to kill myself by overdosing on my psyche meds.One week ago today just about an hour from now,I took about 20 pills of Lamotrogine and 20 pills of Citropram.I almost died this time.I spent part of the day in the emergency room,than I spent the next 24 hours in the ICU.on Tuesday they transferred me to the CCU,on Wednesday they did a heart catheration on me wanting to see what kind of damage I did.Fortunately they did not find any blockages,they are not sure what kind of damage I did to my heart.that will take some more tests to determine.Needless to say I am grateful for surviving my attempt.I have been off ALL of my different meds that I have been taking and I am doing real good.Maybe the different cocktail of medications were contributing to some of the depression that led to my attempting to take my own life.BOTTOM LINE OF THE POSTING IS THAT I AM GRATEFUL TO BE ALIVE,FEEL BLESSED TO SURVIVED MY ATTEMPT,ACCEPT FULL BLAME FOR MY STUPIDITY.
6 comments:
Depression is an awful thing Mike. I don't know what led you down the path you took, but I hope you and your doctors find out why. Don't be so hard on yourself either. Just saying.
Have a terrific day and I'm very grateful that you are still with us. Big hug to you both. :)
Sandee,I really feel alive right now.maybe the huge amounts of different drugs for the different medical concerns I have caused the chain of events that lead up to the train wreck last week,I do not know.All I do know is I do not want to be back on that train again.
I am also grateful that you are alive. I really like you, too.
Etheral Highway,I am so glad that I survived as well.it was touch and go last Monday.
I am glad you attempt was unsuccessful. I really do understand why people do these things. Depression robs one of everything good. It is an illness with horrible horrible symptoms. You had a really bad attack.
Remember, a depressive episode is always temporary. Always. God be with you and give you peace and hope. Dr. Bobbi
Inside The schrink,this time was really bad,If I had not had thrown up while passed out,I really believe that I would have died.
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